Post by Jypsi on Oct 28, 2008 16:53:49 GMT -5
As you know, the Furcadian Equestrian Community has gone through many Up's and many Down's. And along the way, many have been horribly scarred by this ordeal. Now, although discouraged at first to do this through my depression therapy I have come to realize many things. One of them is I am not a bad person, and because of this I did not really mean to treat people in such ways as I had. So, without further rambling I will show you by what I mean.
NOTE: Please do not find in any offense of anything I do or did say in this letter it was merely an expression of my emotions and I do not hate anyone nor am I trying to pin my deeds upon someone elses blame.
Dear Wyndlily,
I know it may come as a shock to you, in more ways then one that I am sending you out this message. And a matter of fact, it actually may come to shock MANY people that I have. As many have probably heard my less then desirable past words about you. For which, I deeply apologize. As for nobody deserves any harsh treatment in the world, unless they do sincerely do something to cause such action. I've really only encountered one or two of those people along the way in my Furcadian Experience and you are not one of them.
First and foremost, I'd like to sincerely apologize for the chaos that has gone on through the years of us being on the game together. I do realize now, through my going into therapy that majority of it was dealt out by a severe depression only brought on by a series of tragic and dismal events. That gave me no reason to bring them upon you, nor did it give me any good reason to talk behind your back or make others go against you. There was absolutely, positively no excuses for these things.
Secondly, I'd really like to apologize for the other dramatic things that have occured since your last leaving. I do realize that Fanta was attacked. Although I do not remember myself actually attacking her about tracing artwork - I do know I did attack her about other things. She will also be recieving a letter much like this shortly afterwards. I realize she's a close friend of yours and I really do apologize for anything I did to upset you via her.
As for anything else I've done or not even really done but were connected to it. I do really apologize. Another thing I want to make clear is that I will openly admit how you posted me out into the open on your TREC forum about my ex-boyfriend hurt a lot. I did not really see how that would accomplish anything and that it was indeed not a good idea to allow a pack of wolves attack someone. But perhaps, I had it coming and I deserved it. And I will openly take that blow this time, however, I do think next time we should merely talk about the matter like grown-ups that we are and not create so much of a scene. I prefer talking, it works in more ways then any other method ever has.
I do also apologize for bluntly holding the Triple Crown Races, but it wasn't merely upon my own decision - it was others whom I will not name in sake of themselves who asked and suggested I -do- hold it (mostly my ex-boyfriend and old owner of churchill downs). And like any dream owner, although apprehensive I wanted to please my dream patrons by doing so. I can not help that, nor can anyone really for that matter.
I realize this letter is long and I've probably forgotten to put things in here. Sadly at 25 I'm beginning to lose my memory!
But I do hope you take into consideration what I've said. But as I see it, we either have to make a mends to make this community as strong as it once was or we continue to allow it to be divided by each dream owners personal perspective of each other and continue to be disliked by the rest of the Furcadian World. Personally, I'd rather work for success then failure. So, please feel free to message me back on your comments and feelings. I'd love to hear them.
Sincerely,
Kisco
P.S. If we can make a mends, I'll gladly come and enter shows at your dream. I've missed horse shows as much as everyone else has! ):
NOTE: Please do not find in any offense of anything I do or did say in this letter it was merely an expression of my emotions and I do not hate anyone nor am I trying to pin my deeds upon someone elses blame.
Dear Wyndlily,
I know it may come as a shock to you, in more ways then one that I am sending you out this message. And a matter of fact, it actually may come to shock MANY people that I have. As many have probably heard my less then desirable past words about you. For which, I deeply apologize. As for nobody deserves any harsh treatment in the world, unless they do sincerely do something to cause such action. I've really only encountered one or two of those people along the way in my Furcadian Experience and you are not one of them.
First and foremost, I'd like to sincerely apologize for the chaos that has gone on through the years of us being on the game together. I do realize now, through my going into therapy that majority of it was dealt out by a severe depression only brought on by a series of tragic and dismal events. That gave me no reason to bring them upon you, nor did it give me any good reason to talk behind your back or make others go against you. There was absolutely, positively no excuses for these things.
Secondly, I'd really like to apologize for the other dramatic things that have occured since your last leaving. I do realize that Fanta was attacked. Although I do not remember myself actually attacking her about tracing artwork - I do know I did attack her about other things. She will also be recieving a letter much like this shortly afterwards. I realize she's a close friend of yours and I really do apologize for anything I did to upset you via her.
As for anything else I've done or not even really done but were connected to it. I do really apologize. Another thing I want to make clear is that I will openly admit how you posted me out into the open on your TREC forum about my ex-boyfriend hurt a lot. I did not really see how that would accomplish anything and that it was indeed not a good idea to allow a pack of wolves attack someone. But perhaps, I had it coming and I deserved it. And I will openly take that blow this time, however, I do think next time we should merely talk about the matter like grown-ups that we are and not create so much of a scene. I prefer talking, it works in more ways then any other method ever has.
I do also apologize for bluntly holding the Triple Crown Races, but it wasn't merely upon my own decision - it was others whom I will not name in sake of themselves who asked and suggested I -do- hold it (mostly my ex-boyfriend and old owner of churchill downs). And like any dream owner, although apprehensive I wanted to please my dream patrons by doing so. I can not help that, nor can anyone really for that matter.
I realize this letter is long and I've probably forgotten to put things in here. Sadly at 25 I'm beginning to lose my memory!
But I do hope you take into consideration what I've said. But as I see it, we either have to make a mends to make this community as strong as it once was or we continue to allow it to be divided by each dream owners personal perspective of each other and continue to be disliked by the rest of the Furcadian World. Personally, I'd rather work for success then failure. So, please feel free to message me back on your comments and feelings. I'd love to hear them.Sincerely,
Kisco
P.S. If we can make a mends, I'll gladly come and enter shows at your dream. I've missed horse shows as much as everyone else has! ):
